Saturday, April 23, 2005

the ger from CHIPPY (far east plaza)

gosh...the weirdest ting happened todae...me n my fren were buying someething light
to munch on from tis stretch of shops at the basement of far east...then as i was about to order..
the counter ger was looking at me...then i was looking at her...then she kinda of smile..then i was like...erm saeing my order out...
then she suddenly asked.."would you wan extra spicy"
then i replied"no!...(smiles).."
then she smiled..
i was abt to laugh at myself man...dumbest eD done it again
so we stood there waiting for our food....then i did not want to look at her..in case she thinks
tat i'm looking at her..hwever...i still got to get my food..
then the awkward moment came...i got my food..
and i couldnt wait to sae "thank you very much"
she smiled again!...gosh...it was rather weird...i couldnt look at her in the eyes man...i duno why..
.:lost inside:. 11:54 PM


what revolves around me will revolve around you.

woke up
feel so screwed up
mind's a blank
don't know wat to do
stare at the computer
thinking of things to type
tv switched on
it's 10.45am.


eD wants a zara polo top.
.:lost inside:. 10:43 AM

Sunday, April 17, 2005
i can only lie on my bed and dream...
.:lost inside:. 1:52 PM


so what do i really want...
what am i really after...
what's in my mind...
am i aiming for something...
are there things that are undone...

i wonder...

.:lost inside:. 1:12 AM

Friday, April 15, 2005
... ... the long waiting period... ... the cold wks...
finally... a reply... a call... but it wasnt a gd conversation...
you sounded depressed...i guess you are...
the break up...foreseen it...but you couldn't let go...
it's not a good time to find you...but i tried...
now i found you...i don't know if i wanna noe wat has happen
i can only pray that you can take care of yourself...
.:lost inside:. 9:06 PM

Monday, April 11, 2005
I was out the other night
and I saw you so we had a fight
and it was late and I was lonely
It was such a long way home
so I asked you if you'd join me for a single last call drink
so you turned and bought us 2
and you didn't even blink
you had this look that of an angel
it was such a bad disguise
when you drink it makes you angry
when I drink I want you more and more and more

tripping hard falling down onto the ground
cause I can't stand up
and I can't fall down cause I'm somewhere in the middle of this...


wat was over the wkend!
on fridae..i had soccer...then went to gym...then went for my jc odac night cycling...til the following morning 6am..then plaed tennis at 10am on saturdae....went for my fren's 20th burdae(happie burdae duck)...then headed back to my jc...caught up wif some of my frens..
sundae was duty back in my camp..

it's a sleepy mondaY!
.:lost inside:. 8:22 PM

Wednesday, April 06, 2005
i'm having a severe migrane man...since aftn..
someone save me...
no panadol..no more drugs for me...
damn......
.:lost inside:. 7:21 PM

Sunday, April 03, 2005
take me over when I'm gone
take me over make me strong
take me over when I'm gone
will they burn for me

on Vineland past the candle shrine that melts into the street design
she waits - for someone
tonight she'll give herself away
she'll break apart all by herself
its so easy how we come undone

-dishwalla "Candleburn"

wat a wkend.went for my frens' conmissioning parade.finally they received their rank as Officers!now i got to salute to them..damn.haha..okae all the way to boon lay was really sickening shit..at least sean bothered to give me a lift back to boon lay station from SAFTI..thanks bro!congrats to derek(one of my greatest bro),iskandar(my bmt gd fren),wenkai n pengfeng n tim n sanduo(sec classmates),ben n jega(my sec sch mates)...

oh rite loneliness may hav caught up on me.but at least there are pple who cares n understands!

thx shawna.
thx derek for the call too.

todae's morning was not bad...managed to ride my bro's bike to park at the carpark in EXPO..=)
fun.manual ignitor is tough man.turning the bike wasnt tat smooth though.but managed!great great great..improving every wk...so yea life can only be better!

current amusement is a book on this ger drug addict!
.:lost inside:. 5:10 PM

Friday, April 01, 2005
somewhere in the middle of this-dishwalla

it's only a dream that i can have you as mine.
it's only my wishful thinking that these will lead to somewhere mystical
it's takes a stupid little fool like me to believe that you would give up what u have now

back from shooting...passed my range shoot at pasir laba camp...i freaking infested wif sandfly bites
itch like hell..went to see the medical officer got some pills to pop.i'm a drug addict now i guess.don't know wat to do
on a fridae nite..tried reading a book which is abt tis writer who is on drugs..at least tmr morning gng to play tennis
wif my bro,yvonne n brenda..something to look forward to relax my mind.it seems tat some of mine office mates thinks
tat i'm stressed or worked up at work..but actually seriously i'm not.i duno.
hiya.i jus slp my life away i guess..

maybe i shu start writing...it's been wks or 2 mths..

wakeboarding once every mth means one yr 600 bucks...

"i can't stand up and i can't fall down"-it's true i guess...=/
.:lost inside:. 10:34 PM