Sunday, August 29, 2004

Ed's so woRE out and TIRED...nEEd reST!!!
it seems tat my whole body is reali wore out...i duno y..it's like i have become veri veri tiredso tired tat i dun feel like dng anyting except to stay at home n slp!i spent the wkend practically slping away half of it...God help me!help ur weak child here...the weak will become strong...=/
went for edgE yesterdae..boy it was quiet and definitely much smaller grp of congregation...but the message was stil gd..and God was there..i tink i saw a vision...i duno...but it has come to a point tat i feel so tired of making choices...i jus cant sit down quietly.the DOOR is there but i jus cant reach the knob..there's hindrances and distractions..i need a breaK badly...i need it for my soul...i duno when i can actually get it!!!!!no freedom not much joy left...i wish i could put on a smile..a smile tat brightens up my dae n other pple's dae...but i can't..i duno y..
im tired spiritually,physically,emotionally,mentally....qte drained out!argh!...
there's no easy way out..i feel like a baby..i need a guiding hand to lead me out of tis...
not much time b4 i go back to camp...tis isnt gonna help...it onli make tings worse...y has HE placed me there,it onli creates fear in my life!!!
"Dear God..i submit myself to you,take away the fear of man,take away the pain im feeling...fill me wif ur embracing love...the warmth tat no one can fill..I need you to guide me thru..i pray for favour in my life,especially wif my superiors in camp..all these i ask in your most wonderful Name." Amen.

.:lost inside:. 6:08 PM

Tuesday, August 24, 2004
eD went to NTUC to shop
oh man..now i noe wat is the peak hour for aunties to do their grocery shopping man...went hougang mall to buy some toiletries and some army tings..the place was packed man!all kinds of pple in it..i felt abit lost n disoriented for awhile..hiya,can't believe i actualli queued for 15 mins!went to take my passport photoes...went popular to get pen n telt...all these are unnecessary man!!if not for army's fault...nvm..jus got to live on wif it..gng to book in 3 hrs' time...shall nap first i tink...then wake up for dinner n final check on the tings i bring..
it's raining!!!qte heavy i would sae..sometimes i wish it wil not rain...sometimes i wish otherwise!

laments on...

.:lost inside:. 5:53 PM


Finished wif Dan Brown's Angels N Demons
finally after more than a mth..i hav finished reading angels n demons...boy it's full of twist n consipracy...an insult to the church i tink.haha..anywhere yea, dun reali noe whether i got time in the nxt 3 mths to finish any book..hope i can lar!
packed my army stuff alrdy..took more than an hour man..lotsa of tings to prepare!it's totally boring n redundant i would i say..the green uniform is giving me the chills man..haha...
yea yest went to swim at junyuan's place wif christopher...then jogged for 2.4km..realised my right foot havent recovered yet..still feel weird..mayb it's the nerves man..anyways yea..so it's another 6 hours to booking in..got to go take passport photo again..sian man..no one's free at tis time!hmph...

out i go...

.:lost inside:. 2:38 PM

Monday, August 23, 2004
VINDICATED-DASHBOARD CONFESSION
Hope dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption
Winding in and winding out
The shine of it has caught my eye
And roped me in
So mesmerizing, and so hypnotizing
I am captivated,
I am...
[Chorus]
Vindicated
I am selfish
I am wrong
I am right
I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself
So clear
Like the diamond in your ring
Cut to mirror your intention
Oversized and overwhelmed
The shine of which has caught my eye
And rendered me so isolated, so motivated
I am certain now that I am...
[Chorus]
So turn
Up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defense is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in
Too deep now to ever swim against the current
So let me slip away [3x]
So let me slip against the current
So let me slip away [4x]
[Chorus]
Like hope
Dangles on a string
Like slow spinning redemption...


.:lost inside:. 10:01 AM

Sunday, August 22, 2004
SLEEPY ED
posted back to SISPEC for another 3 mths...boy it's tough for me to accept tat..but i can't do anyting abt it..jus hav to live thru it..so keep praying for me!thx.
hmm..wat did i do for the wkend..went for corp activity bowling..i nv bowl cos of my legs...hardly walk properly without pain after the 32 km graduation march round tekong man...sickening tirED,haven't recover yet though...still fatigue...hmm,went for edgE then met my clique for dinner at far east magicwok..it was a treat from my dear officer cadet derek...earning much more than us(specialist)unfair man...then headed to sean's place for soccer match,hmm plaed wif his golden retriever..veri friendly and obedient man!and it's bigger size than me!oops...duno when i can get my dream dog(siberian huskie)hmm....
as for todae..went to watch alien vs predator wif my chinese high clique again at bishan after morning sVc..stupid dumb waste of money show..1hr 27 mins onli for an action movie..got cheated man.then went dwn to SGH to visit matthew leck...i always hav mixed feeling abt visiting pple in hospital..it jus gives me the chills...at least he's recovering,continue to pray for him man...rushed down to tamp for evening...fell aslp during the msg...was totally knocked out lar...i seriously need a str 10 hrs slp man!!!hiya...came home for a home made dinner by my mum=)...guess tat's all...

(msg for sis-hANG IN THERE!i noe tat feeling..it seems too familiar..jus having put the world behind you and u being in front...enjoying the pure complete freedom and relaxation..no worries..no anyting..jus ur own world lost in music too)

.:lost inside:. 11:25 PM

Saturday, August 21, 2004

Here's the site for Marches dinner last saturdaE:

http://community.webshots.com/album/175324999FrvJCa

.:lost inside:. 10:30 AM

Sunday, August 15, 2004

Need to get right with God...
hmm..i don't know why..i jus need to hear the voice of God..i realised tat there's a sense of fear of stuffs in me tat hinders me every now and then..don't ask me how or why,i myself have no idea too...it's jus tat i always tink of accidents happening or hav i suffered a memory lost...i mean, some times i wake up forgetting wat i did yesterday...but after a while i start to remember...haha,tis may sound absurb...but seriously..there's sumting tat hinders me..worries me...i reali like to rebuke it..oh yar, i hav often failed to seek Him in happy times...only the gloomy daes tat i seeked Him...guess i hav taken Him for granted too many times..i reali wan to make it right...i wan to pure and holy life...the emptiness tat i felt recently have cause me to wake up..im nt gng to wait for tings to happen..im gng to make tings happen in my life..=/

tis is finally e last wk of BASIC SECTION LEADER COURSE(BSLC SISPEC)...soon i hope...i got my last IPPT test...pls pray tat i pass it...or even better get a silver..got an irritating in grown toe nail tat is infected..hope the infection subsides...

went to Marches for dinner wif my bro,josh,evie,dionne,jason,audrey,jingsi...had a great time=)
ohyar..as usual we took photoes..waiting for my cousin to upload it!yeaps..every sat seems the dae i always look forward to!haha...

To O and A levels students : You reap what you sowed-->work hard and tings will all turn out fine!hang in there...ffffeeeeewwww more wks to go=>eat normal and hv enuff resT!continue to pray and seek Him.dont get stress up!
God bless!

.:lost inside:. 8:23 PM

Wednesday, August 11, 2004

booking in soon..2 hours' time...my toe hurts!the nail cut thru the skin i tink..tmr still got 5km fast march...it's torturous man...hiya, 9 more daes!!!hope i can book out tis wkend..halfway thru Dan Brown's ANGELS AND DEMONS...wat is it wif scientists n the church man...both da vinci code n tis hav the same kind of storyline...
lalalala....
shaln't tok much...the photo taken from tekong beach...nice??my bro took it when i passed out fr BMT..

.:lost inside:. 7:34 PM

gave my bro a treat at Paragon's Din Tai Fung yesterdae nite...basically chinese food lar..
woke up at 10 todaE!!gosh it feels reali gd to slp at my own beD!i miss my home,my bed,my frens...everythinG!after a wk in camp...
todae went down to beach rd to sew on my corp rank onto my uniform..nothing big deal abt it..waste of my money anywys..then i had to go Chevron(tis club house in jurong east meant for specialist in army)...2 hrs of travelling jus to accomodate a 1 hr orientation of the clubhouse...hw's tat man...then rusheD back to compaSs point!had dinner wif kathleen(boy it's great to catch up wif you!haha..i promised i wont make fun of arty students k!heh..pls continue to correct my english...if you happ to read tis.heh)..then back home!
oh i got a polo tee from TOPMAN for 46 bucks...hope it doesnt shrink..tis month's allowance depleting fast man!hav to control myself..i stil wan to get a Beanie man!saw some at topshop..but nv try..cos i made my guanrui wait for me for qte some time while trying the shirts..haha...yea..
dun tink im gng to do any grocery shopping tis wk..still hav 13 packets of milk in bunk..haha...enuff to last to my pass out date which will b 20th AUG!!!!pray tat i dun get posted to ASLC man...i reali pray tat i will get a chance to go unit...pls pray for me guys!=)
to the students out there..hang in there..prelims are coming!work hard for tis remaining few mths...you will not regret it!sacriface some social time wif ur frens...stay strong spiritually and physically!
to bad you cant suan me todae!hehe..=p nxt time lar huh...>

.:lost inside:. 12:47 AM

Monday, August 09, 2004

my pass out parade photoes are finally up......not many...some havent uploaded...too lazy

http://www.imagestation.com/album/?id=4285969189&congratulation_page=Y


anyways it had been a long wk and a tiring one..im totally physically exhausteD!!!
i need fresh air tooo!!it's national dae..but wat's impt is i booked out!yeaH!

.:lost inside:. 2:54 PM