Sunday, May 30, 2004

POP in six daes' time...mixed feelings..time really flies,everyone nv tot it has been 2 mths!!to mark the end of 2nd mth is my BIRTHDAY!!!tis yr i dun even noe hw to celebrate it man..will be in camp..my frens some still in camp..mum bought me a MANGO cake..hiya..no time to celebrate i guess..so far received zero presents=/sad case man..everyone forgets abt the army guys..tink it's true too.heh..kidding..but i did receive early greetings..lolx

anyways yest went to ubin for SURVIVOR..was a leisure walk for me..went there jus to walk n enjoy the air i guess.haha..by the time i reached home i was totally knocked out..due to extreme exhaustion fr the dae b4..watched THE DAY AFTER TMR wif my clique..plus b4 survivor i plaed tennis wif joanna,jason n clement...not bad huh!hehe
=)

yea tis wk will b drills at the parade square..oh did i mention i blacked out during MASTER's Parade...my eyes was opened but i could not see anyting..but thankfully i didnt move n lose balance which would have resulted fainting...my bunkmate did faint..hehe.oops...i nv wringle my toes..haha..tink the blood all went down to my feet n not up into my brains..

anyways i jus accepted NUS FACULTY OF SCIENCE...
NTU ACCOUNTANCY...
hmm..i dun like NTU...but an accountant pay looks attractive..hehe...anyways i was tinking of aiming for doub degree in uni...lolx...

thank God for seeing me thru the past 2 months!!
after nxt wk i will be dng SHOPPING!!anyone care to join me?heh..GREAT SINGAPORE SALES...


.:lost inside:. 4:59 PM


NICKELBACK : SOMEDAY

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables

I wish you'd unclench your fists
And unpack your suitcase
Lately there's been too much of this
Dont think its too late

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when

Well i hoped that since we're here anyway
We could end up saying
Things we've always needed to say
So we could end up stringing
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)
Someday, somehow
gonna make it allright but not right now
I know you're wondering when
(You're the only one who knows that)

[Solo]

How the hell did we wind up like this
Why weren't we able
To see the signs that we missed
And try to turn the tables
Now the story's played out like this
Just like a paperback novel
Lets rewrite an ending that fits
Instead of a hollywood horror

Nothin's wrong
just as long as
you know that someday I will

.:lost inside:. 4:49 PM

Saturday, May 29, 2004

.:lost inside:. 10:48 PM

Sunday, May 23, 2004
going to book in soon...anyways jus downloaded BLINK 182-I MISS YOU and NICKELBACK- SOMEDAY..both are very good songs...my burdae's coming!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ALERT!!haha..neawaes yea my BMT life is ending in 2 wks time!whoohoo!anyone wants to come watch me pass out..tell me!heh,i dun tink my parents coming since they been to my bro's one b4..to those who hav been keeping me in prayer..thanks,life is becoming better each dae i guess...though i still tink of many stuff..but it's inevitable i guess=)

IPPT results
2.4km run- 9.41 mins
Standing board jump- 230 (short of 4 cm to get gold!bleahx)
Chin ups- 12
Shuttle run- 9.6 secs
Sit ups- 45

Overall points-all 5 except SBJ
SILVER badge..shucks

hehe..thank God for the improvement though..SOC test tis wk n 16km route march

take care pple..love ya frens

.:lost inside:. 6:36 PM

Sunday, May 02, 2004
"Gone is the sun in my liFe
Glooming figures haunt my soul
Searching thru the darkness
For a way out of this miserable realm
To escape is a sin
To stay is pain
Nothing shines in my world
Still waiting for the sun to rise
I thirst for the beams of hope
I craved for the bright rays
Please rise up in my life again"

-eD
This is the song for my life now
R.E.M - Everybody hurts
When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
when you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on.
Don't let yourself go, everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes.

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along.
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
if you feel like letting go, (hold on)
when you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on.

Everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends.
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand.
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
when you think you've had too much of this life to hang on.

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes.
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on.
Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on. Hold on, hold on."

.:lost inside:. 4:19 PM


Just before i go for my fieldcamp and my confinement period..there are things i jus cant leave behind...i cant handle this situation myself...i doubt any human being can..never felt so lost and dazed b4 in my whole life..it seemed so unreal it seemed it happened jus moments ago...i did not foresee this to happen...i did not choose to be this way...i tried my very best...and im still trying...i jus cant let it go...i tried forgetting but it kept ringing at the back of my head..i simply did wat i can in vain...if God can jus answer me..i pray for a miracle..tears shed not for a meaningless cause..time can pass me by..but it will never consume my feelings n it will never change me..to hang on is like a fool then i shall be the world's biggest fool..to let go is painful but letting it go means more excruciating pain..determination to move on is wat i lack...once i tot i was strong mentally..but now it's proven otherwise..


So Far Away-Staind
"This is my life
It's not what it was before
All these feelings I've shared
And these dreams
That I'd never lived before
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping

Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was all in vain
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed
To be the person I am today

These are my words
That I've never said before
I think I'm doing okay
And this smile
That I've never shown before
Somebody shake me 'cause I
I must be sleeping

Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was all in vain
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed
To be the person I am today

I'm so afraid of waking
Please don't shake me
Afraid of waking
Please dont shake me

Now that we're here, it's so far away
All the struggle we thought was all in vain
They all finally start to go away
Now that we're here, it's so far away
And I feel like I can face the day
I can forgive, and I'm not ashamed
To be the person I am today"

.:lost inside:. 4:10 PM